Thanks Virginia for the encouragement. I don't like where my life has ended up at this time and don't want to do these much because it only reminds me of most of the stuff I'd rather not think about at this time. This challenge being one of them, because it doesn't make sense to me for whom I have tried to be in life and what others that have come and gone have told me about myself when asked. I feel they never must have tried to know me or have to be some of the stupidest people I've ever met, with no understanding of others and selfish individuals only looking out for themselves. So I stay away and don't even talk to people much anymore. To much has changed and they say you know your true friends when you go through rough times like loosing a house and more than ten $ an hr in pay. I found that I don't have friends, especially ones like I have been to just about anyone in my life. Helping others reach their goals in life unselfishly while leaving my own dreams to go to waste since a lot of people looked to me for help but decided they were to busy when I needed it. The only answer I can get out of any is you are single and we are married with kids and don't have the time. So I don't help people much anymore. That was my volunteering over the years while I worked more hrs than most of them for 13 years of my life, while still never turning down others and keeping up with playing sports, exercising and out having fun. Then it all disappeared while everyone else got married, and I lost the Job I loved, and have tried about 8 since in the last 12 years and have been lied to and double crossed by employers while being one of their best employees according to their own statistics and great reviews I got over the years. I've been cut from jobs, laid off and replaced by people that were paid 5$ less any hour but could even do the job right (So I was told by others still working there) People that liked me as a trainer asked bosses to bring me back. So no I don't have any faith in employers to have my best interest at hand, especially not financially or to offer any of the nice benefits I was used to. Even now I'm working for an old school mate that is taking the same advantage of me as the rest have. My life is to strained by the relationships that have all fallen away because others seem to no care as long as they had other friends to count on. Plus I've never felt part of my family and have to live with a brother that I don't want to but have to because I can't even afford an apartment on my own at what I'm being paid. I feel like I'm around a bunch of rednecks, especially since is stepson moved back in a month after I came here. I have to listen to Racist remark, while they watch tv. while the son and his gf both have kids has a just turned 2 year old that everyone swears around, and no one wants to take responsibility for, letting them run around the house while they drink and watch tv. I get flash backs of all the kayos of growing up in a 10 person home with parents that couldn't even handle 2 kids.
This is why I don't come on here much anymore.
April 22, 2012 at 5:21 UTC
"Write down 2 key characteristics of your ideal job or volunteer work"